I am sitting in the quiet of our home, drinking a freshly pressed cup of coffee from Ethiopia (thanks Mom), brimming with the kind of emotions that feel like they need to be shared. Not necessarily for your benefit or for mine, but because I value those of you who read this - who have been reading this - and who will delight and labor with us in your own ways as we have and continue to journey in our marriage.
I am so, so blessed. And I think, before Italy, I had lost sight of that. I took things for granted in a way I don't want to again for a very, very long time - if ever. You see, I have this man in my life who makes the world spin for me in a way that never seemed possible - and we serve a God who makes it so. And both had lost their place of priority... not in the name of anything but my own Self. What other people think of me, whether people like my photography, what makes me happy and a complete and total preoccupation with my reflection in the mirror - figuratively speaking.
And now as we venture into a new season of removing the carefully determined obstacles we had set in place to hold off creating a family, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with a wave of freedom, mingled with trepidation, and utter joy. If there was, at any point, a greater moment for me to lose Self - willingly and in the way that we were meant to in journeying towards Christ - it will be in the nearing future and I welcome it wholeheartedly.
And I can't imagine a more wonderful Guide and companion with which to do so.
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