In a Long Time

For the first time in a long time, I feel compelled to blog.

Up until now, my approach to blogging has followed a thought route a bit like this:

Huh. I wonder when was the last time I blogged? It feels like forever ago.

Checks blog.

Oh, it was forever ago. Well certainly something was worth blogging about in that time. Right?

Scratches head, looks at calendar.

Yeah, I mean, I guess so. Maybe I should just write a summary post to keep our audience... all two of the people reading this... happy and informed. Yeah. Yeah, I'll do that.

Blogs.

Don't have to touch that again for a month!

And repeat.

It's a funny thing to want to scratch out the thought bubbles that go on inside one's brain onto a four by five box on a webpage so that someone will see and read it - even if it's just me three years from now.  But alas, we must sometimes indulge our compulsions...

I've been fairly private and isolated by my normal standards of web interaction, lately. Yet, today I want to shout from the rooftops the intricacies of life in this season for us.  Knowing how to share those things, however, is one of the most perplexing challenges of all.

How do I tell you that my heart has been reawakened to my life's work as a wife and companion TO THE BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD? That I've read three books in the last two weeks pertaining to topics such as starting a family, reclaiming passion in your marriage, and making music (haha). And that's only three of the NINE BOOKS Cliff purchased to add to our library while I was in Italy. All nine pertaining to marriage related subjects which we'd hope, one day, to share with others.

How do I tell you that we are, for the first time in three and a half years, completely and totally uninhibited from the possibility of bringing kids into this world? That every day is this crazy mixture of hope and joy and freedom, knowing that at just about any time - in His timing - God could bless us with new life. I should admit to you in this telling, however, that my impatience will likely make this more of a challenge for myself than it should be, seeing as I've wanted this FOR SO LONG.

Well there, that was easy.

And so now I drink my morning cup of coffee, make my grocery list for the week, and turn to face another day with a few more thought bubbles shared and my heart lifted in the sharing.

Thanks for reading!