Even When It's Messy

Whatever your opinions may be, Cliff and I find such counsel in John Eldredge's words. The Lord has used them time and time over to speak to and to affirm some of the things going on in our hearts. Even his post, today, resonates with exactly where my mind has been and wants to journey in the coming days.

Today, I have found myself wavering between a new found joy in my work, particularly during one of the most mentally stressful seasons here, and wondering where that frustration and resentment went that I finished out last week with. I knew a lot of the negativity towards my current task-load that I was expressing to other people wasn't what was truly way down deep, but I could only get so far before the "agreements" came tumbling out of my mouth, shooting me straight into the complaining, whining, whambulance bucket. And not only what I was saying about my work but my abilities to do and to accomplish.

And today, I just knew that wasn't the case. That's got to be the truth since I'm here at work almost an hour after our office closed and I'm not upset about it. I've been working on budget forecasting for my office all day and it's still been good day. It's all in my attitude and where I let my thoughts go. And sure, sure, I'll give myself some slack because last week wasn't the time of month you'll usually get the best side of me. But aside from then, I have no excuses.

I love my work, even when it's messy, and don't let me tell you otherwise.