Normal Weekends

It does not feel like a Friday. What day it feels like, I'm not quite sure - Thursday, maybe? I think I'm not ready for the weekend because for what feels like the first in ages, there is nothing of "significance" taking place this weekend. I welcome the change. Wholeheartedly. I mean, don't get me wrong - we've had an incredible time in the way of weekends over the last (month?) but I haven't been home on the weekend since April. For example:

First weekend in May - North Carolina (family stuff)
Second weekend in May - Cleveland (family stuff)
Third weekend in May - Maryland (shower)
Fourth weekend in May - Cleveland (holiday)
First weekend in June - Cleveland (shower)

Cliff has asked me at least five times what I want to do this weekend, and I love saying "whatever." It's awesome! We've talked about going for a bike ride, hanging out at the pool, maybe getting together with some friends, definitely going to church on Sunday and catching up with our long-lost Sunday School friends, maybe running a few wedding errands and getting to work on thank you notes from the last shower.

By the way, about 75 people showed up to the shower last weekend and we got some incredible gifts. A food processor (WOOHOO!), our KitchenAid mixer, sets of dishes, and so much more - it's amazing how generous people can be in celebration of a marriage. Speaking of, as the day draws nigh (I've always wanted to use that word in a blog), I am less and less anxious about it all - I mean, not the marriage, because that's never really been an issue with me... bring it on. But as far as the day itself goes, I am beginning to realize (thanks to the final episode of "Grey's," which I finally watched sometime last week) that while it is a big celebration, it is not the be-all end-all... it is in fact, a singular moment in a normal day that you begin anew and are joined by a lot of really important people. Something goes wrong, or messes up everyday of every person's life and while that is our day, it is also many other people's day and life happens. I'm just excited for what it can be and not what it should be, because how does one dictate that? It is what it is! I am NOT in control.

I am just realizing again and again how not worth it is to get stressed out and particular about some things. I mean, sure, there's a few things on my mind as far as the details that kind of plague me just because it'd be nice to have them checked off the list. But that's not at the forefront of my mind. I have incredibly talented, thoughtful, and creative people that are connected to this special day, from my dearest friends to the cake-lady. I just can't wait to see how it turns out! And in the meantime, I'm pacing myself - working on little projects here and there, trying not to be a pest to people who are themselves working on projects for me, you know how it goes.

So here's to a normal weekend, followed by a string of normal weekends as the days count down... SO EXCITED!