I keep sort of feeling like all of this house stuff is so beyond anything we could be orchestrating. I waver between being completely overwhelmed with gratitude and, I'll admit it, fear that somehow all of this shouldn't be lining up this way.
Just this morning we confirmed with a great couple who are friends of friends that they will be taking over our lease here at the apartment two thirds of the way through October. I wish I could begin to tell you how incredible this is. First, that our complex who does not allow subletting or transferring of leases between separate parties (who are not already roommates) would like us enough and be kind enough to let us do this. Second, that someone would come along so fast to even consider doing this (sending us into a frenzy last night de-cluttering our apartment before they came to view it). Third, that we'd have some cushion between our closing date and when we'd have to be fully out of the apartment giving us time to pack, clean, paint, etc. And fourth, admittedly most exciting, that we will save almost $2800 which is what the extra rent and penalties for breaking a lease would have cost us. Unbelievable.
Funny enough, just after that confirmation, I got my first taste of the feeling of bottoming out when I realized the money I'd transferred from our money market into our checking account on Monday (after making the offer and attaching an Earnest Money check) posted a day after the check was withdrawn. Gulp. Lord knows the money, and more, was there to cover it in every other account not to mention the money market from which the money was to come. But still.I went into panic mode and barely had three words out before I was blubbering on the phone with a bank customer service representative. Poor guy. Within minutes everything was taken care of. And not because I was blubbering or because he felt pity for me, but because naturally before the realty check was returned the bank was smart enough to realize the money was there and the guy said in cases like this a bank will always offer a courtesy overdraft fee waver. I mean, really?
I have to say, only because I am feeling the weightiness of my obligation, that we believe God is in every bit of what's transpired in the last week or so. And NOT because things are turning out the way we want them. I hate to imagine what we'd think of this whole thing even weeks ago when we were still believers who thought that good behavior=good results and vice versa. Probably pride. Arrogance. Self-satisfaction.
And while there aren't still traces of those awful little tendencies, somehow I feel like the themes from even just our last month spent in counseling (which I highly recommend for every couple, even at the pinnacle of your relationship!) and in conversation about what it means to deny the flesh and follow God and about the end result of our lives not being happiness but giving glory to our Creator, have made this all feel so very different.
We're on pins and needles around every turn. And while fear still rears its ugly head and tells me that something has got to turn for the worse on this journey, I am so beyond hopeful that we will continue to see God's hand in this endeavor whatever the results.
Thanks for joining along with your encouraging words and support!
Just this morning we confirmed with a great couple who are friends of friends that they will be taking over our lease here at the apartment two thirds of the way through October. I wish I could begin to tell you how incredible this is. First, that our complex who does not allow subletting or transferring of leases between separate parties (who are not already roommates) would like us enough and be kind enough to let us do this. Second, that someone would come along so fast to even consider doing this (sending us into a frenzy last night de-cluttering our apartment before they came to view it). Third, that we'd have some cushion between our closing date and when we'd have to be fully out of the apartment giving us time to pack, clean, paint, etc. And fourth, admittedly most exciting, that we will save almost $2800 which is what the extra rent and penalties for breaking a lease would have cost us. Unbelievable.
Funny enough, just after that confirmation, I got my first taste of the feeling of bottoming out when I realized the money I'd transferred from our money market into our checking account on Monday (after making the offer and attaching an Earnest Money check) posted a day after the check was withdrawn. Gulp. Lord knows the money, and more, was there to cover it in every other account not to mention the money market from which the money was to come. But still.I went into panic mode and barely had three words out before I was blubbering on the phone with a bank customer service representative. Poor guy. Within minutes everything was taken care of. And not because I was blubbering or because he felt pity for me, but because naturally before the realty check was returned the bank was smart enough to realize the money was there and the guy said in cases like this a bank will always offer a courtesy overdraft fee waver. I mean, really?
I have to say, only because I am feeling the weightiness of my obligation, that we believe God is in every bit of what's transpired in the last week or so. And NOT because things are turning out the way we want them. I hate to imagine what we'd think of this whole thing even weeks ago when we were still believers who thought that good behavior=good results and vice versa. Probably pride. Arrogance. Self-satisfaction.
And while there aren't still traces of those awful little tendencies, somehow I feel like the themes from even just our last month spent in counseling (which I highly recommend for every couple, even at the pinnacle of your relationship!) and in conversation about what it means to deny the flesh and follow God and about the end result of our lives not being happiness but giving glory to our Creator, have made this all feel so very different.
We're on pins and needles around every turn. And while fear still rears its ugly head and tells me that something has got to turn for the worse on this journey, I am so beyond hopeful that we will continue to see God's hand in this endeavor whatever the results.
Thanks for joining along with your encouraging words and support!
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