Overall it went well, but I've got a few what I've started to call "bruises". And these are mostly self-inflicted because I guess, for the first time, a lot was being asked of me professionally and I let the echoes of that double the amount of emotional stress I should have felt in the first place. I just wanted to get this so right so badly, striving for perfection in a way that was a bit misguided. And I couldn't help but feel like I was missing the mark over and over again. To the point of literally missing the mark in areas of my life completely unrelated to and much more important than my work.
Everyone, for the most part, has been really supportive and understanding. Mom has forgiven me forgetting to call on her birthday. Cliff joined me at work on my late nights, both Monday and Tuesday. My wonderful students brought me a card and bouquet of brightly colored flowers in a vase yesterday morning. Jody sent a thoughtful text message of prayers on Monday. And Andrew has done nothing but support and encourage me profusely over the last several weeks.
I have received grace upon grace and mercy upon mercy.
I guess it's about time I start showing myself a little of it the same...
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Hey, it's over and I'm sure you did AWESOME! Glad you're learning not to beat yourself up when you can't exactly reach perfection :)
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